OUT OF PLACE, BURIED NOT FAR UNDERNEATH

It is so difficult to really know that to own my part does not mean what happened was justified. I have refused to really look at myself for fear of what I would see or the leverage it might give to the otherside. No matter how much I know about taking responsibility for my part I am still so afraid that it cancels my experience. I realize it not true and my side is only my side, but my head is messy.

God give me the willingness and help me not be an asshole today.